lmao good to know that after all this time, alexia still hasn’t changed one bit
2011 vs 2013
I can already hear everyone. “But wait a minute… you don’t look like you lost weight at all! In fact, you look way skinner in the ‘before’ pictures than you do in the ‘after’!”
And it’s true. Between the before pictures, taken in 2011, and the after picture, taken just a few minutes ago, I’ve gained around 20 lbs (or maybe more? I haven’t really checked the scale in a while).
I made this post to emphasize that weight loss isn’t the only important thing in life. Let’s make some comparisons, shall we?
In 2011, I was miserable. Sure, I was at my lowest weight since the 9th grade, but I didn’t hang out with my friends. I shut people off. I never got dinner with anyone because it would mess up my workout schedule — at least, that was my reasoning at the time. I was in a relationship that I couldn’t see was broken because I didn’t have the self-esteem to see that we both deserved better.
In 2013, I am beyond happy. I’m potentially at one of my highest weights, but again, I haven’t weighed myself in a while. I live with one of my best friends, and make an effort to see my other friends whenever I can (despite my awful work schedule). I exercise because I want to, not because I feel like I have to — and yes, that sometimes means not working out for weeks at a time. I’m choosing to focus on myself and my happiness. My self-worth is no longer centered around how fat I am.
Does this mean that I never have shit body image days? Of course not! I have ups and downs, and I learn to deal with them. The difference between now and two years ago, however, is that I no longer feel unworthy of happiness because of a number on a scale.
I just want to show everyone that before and after journeys don’t have to always start with one higher weight and end with another lower weight.
Yes, I am fatter than I was two years ago. But I am also immeasurably happier.
hey! so it’s pretty obvious that i don’t post here that regularly anymore, but just in case you were curious, here are some other places on the internet where i am much more active:
i just miss all of you and wish i had time to run this blog 24/7 like i used to! but if you all want to follow me at these other sites, please do, so we can catch up :)
Last week, I made the incredibly impulsive decision to fly up to New York City this weekend with a friend! We’re getting in around 10 AM on Saturday, seeing a concert that night, and then leaving around 8 PM on Sunday.
If any of you live in or have visited NYC, please give me suggestions on things to do! I’m not going to be there for that long, and I’ve been to NYC once before to do all the tourist-y things (Empire State Building, Central Park Zoo, Yankees game, etc), but if there are any restaurants or shops or anything you think I should check out, please let me know :)
(oh! And if we follow each other and you want to meet up, just shoot me a message!)
Help my friend Holli get to Spain!
From her Go Fund Me site:
At first glance I am what you would expect, a college student working two jobs and completing a double major just trying to see the world. My parents work four jobs between them just to support my sister and I so that we can have an education. Yet I implore you to look past that and help me achieve my goal of studying abroad and experiencing complete and total culture shock for a few months of my short life. Help this psychology addict have a chance to get inside the minds of an entirely new society while simultaneously expanding my own. Whether it’s one dollar or one hundred, anything to help me slip away to Spain.
Even if you can’t donate, please reblog and spread the word!